Crushing spree.......

This might seem slightly out of place given the fact that the past few days have been hard on me.

Whats been hard-
1) The college results were a sadist's delight with me making a 6 point someone, all because the lousy faculty at the wormhole thought better of overloooking the number of bunks i had enacted and gave me a straight DD in about every damn practical......

note: I don give a damn.....

2) The JEE results are out too and i have fared exceedingly bad. Though as a face-saver, i did manage a rank, a fuckin 7000+ shit, it practically leaves me stranded on a pretty precarious footing. Even given my hollow preparations, i had expected better to come off it.....

note: I'll be damned...

What is out of place-

Well, I havent ever been the most solicitous of guys with the opposite sex. This causes me to mumble gibberish, break into unseasonal sweat and act in an erratic manner whenever a chance arises for me to talk to a female of roughly my age.

The circumstances dictate me to understand the imminent and move on. In an effort to gather advice regardin the same, i ended up consulting the enormous wealth of experience that people have to share on the web. From some substantial quarters, the tune is that i need to open myself up a bit and be more conducive towards girls so that i dont end up, not knowing what i want from mine and script a recipe for a catastrophe.

Lol....feels surreal that even given my poor show on the academic front, I have actually fallen for 3 girls(um...be accomodating abt the age) in one day......

1) The info of the first girl is confidential but god knows.......at least the 'god of small things' does.........anyways...I was going through the profile of a friend of mine and saw a familiar name yell out. It was a girl about whom he had told me, last fall. Though then, i did feel warmly towards her in not-brotherly kinda way, i didnt give much air to the fire in which my mind was blazing then. Now, its a sense of Deja Vu as i went through her Blog, exactly at a time when i feel that the clock is ticking away to oblivion. She seems a very sweet girl with a good litrerary prowess for someone whos been in gujarat, all life and hasnt matured beyond 18 summers.
A good looking lass from the peninsular India.....watch out for this space.....some thing may yet materialise....

2) Okay. Statuory warning: Ill informed bozos, better keep off this.
Its Aung San Suu Kyi......she is a 40...no 50 something revolutionary leader from myanmar.The face of democracy in the background of a military disposition of her country, she has been under house arrest since nearly 2 decades.I was watchin ndtv and there was this report about nfair charges being pressed against her bang on the eve of history as the country goes to polls after ages, sumtime this year.Her radiant smile inspite of the oppressed existence she has led,her lovely face shrouded by wrinkles but exuding aura and her frail figure, a veteran of tortures that have been inflicted upon her, just stole my heart........
Such selflessness and yet such uncertainty about the future.I love her so..for all that she stands for and the fact that her beauty is a prologue to her effervescence,undying resolve and humility.

3)The ever so politically correct, and an epitome of the fact that u-dont-need-to-bathe-in-a-virgin's-blood-to-stay-young......I am indicating, Shobhaa De...Her articulate language, her ebullient confidence and her age defying outfits are real turn-ons for a mortal like me.
The disparity is stark. Her, an out going senior-citizen socialite and me, a no-gooder who hasnt yet shed the teens, but again the boundaries are a matter of perception.That she is a marathi is yet another credebtial of hers that goes down well with me because i have some unsolicited admiration for marathi women.Her articles and her works of literature are a real pleasure to read and reflect her intellectual accomplishments. lol....never mind her age.....

That was something............
neways.......no offence......i still have some residual space in my mind for an old tenant........but now that the writing is on the wall, i guess its time i coax the tenant out and get hold of myself.........


cheers...

signing off